Today has been a nice day all around besides only sleeping a couple hours last night. I have an incredibly hard A&P LAB final tomorrow, a test that we should have been studying for over the last two weeks, and I’ve devoted maybe an hour to. It’s very hard to focus on that class right now. I feel I’ve been spoken to, and it’s leading me down a road that does not require Anatomy and Physiology.
I spent the last few hours importing some new poetry I wrote while in NYC in the Spring. I took out my books, but I couldn’t stop thinking of some of these poems, so I put them down.
I feel more connected to the world than I ever have before. It both scares me and excites me. But in the back of my mind, in the spot that often is the only thing telling you the truth, I feel that this is going to be a good thing…whatever this turns out to be. In the meantime, I can’t stop thinking of these lines by e.e. cummings. I wrote them in my notebook in the spring.
“May I Be I is the only prayer-
Not may I be great or good or beautiful or strong.”
FibroM.E.-Awesome 
Great share, young lady!
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This was lovely, and I am thankful you posted that quote. God bless.
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One of my favorite quotes by him is ” The most wasted of all days is one without laughter.” …
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I just wanted to tell you how happy I am to have found your blog. A friend posted your “15 Things White Girls Love to Post of Facebook” on my FB wall a few days ago, and while I found it absolutely hilarious (and true!), I was even more interested in the fact that you’re a young woman suffering from fibro and all the “fun” that comes with it. I’m 31 and was diagnosed with fibro, CFS, IBS, depression and anxiety a few years ago (although the symptoms started long before that), and I can’t tell you how it makes me feel to know that I’m not the only one dealing with this crap. I don’t take 25 pills a day (yet), but I take quite a few (15 at last count, with 2 news ones being added today). I can’t find the right word to explain how reading your blog makes me feel – I guess you could say I get a sense of relief from knowing I’m not the only one going through this crap. While my friends and family are supportive and sympathetic, they don’t really get it, and there aren’t any support groups in my area to help me deal with it. So, I just wanted to tell you that I appreciate you putting yourself out there! If you feel like it and have time, I’d love to chat with you sometime to learn more about how you’re coping, what meds you’ve found to be helpful, etc. Feel free to email me or friend me on FB (linked below). Take care of yourself, and THANK YOU!
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I really understand where you are coming from in this post, and have felt this many times and still do!!! Always listen to that little voice! Its the same as walking in somewhere and knowing, truly knowing you shouldn’t be there and belong else where!
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I forgot all about ee cummings. Thank you for the reminded. Great post!
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Reminder. Stupid 1am typing.
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Great post, I agree, listen to that inner voice, because if you don’t, remember you will have to live the rest of your life ignoring it! What hard work…much better to listen and pay attention when your shown something. Your writing is great and so enjoyable to read. I just turned 28 on the weekend, have two kids (one with special needs), left a bad marriage this year, etc, (basically life throws you curve balls theory) and writing is something I am only recently feeling like I can “claim” as something I do…gee it is good for the soul. xx Keep it up
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I couldn’t agree with you more…!! Writing….IS amazing for the soul ! A great outlet for all of those people in my head ! ;)
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Mary, I think it “… is a good thing.” Nice post.
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I completely understand that feeling that what you’re being spoken to and it has nothing to do with what you’re currently doing…
I LOVE e.e. cummings and love the voice he has given to things I can’t usually put in to words. I have Poetry has often made me feel more connected to everything – including myself. Hopefully the path you’re following will continue to feel like the right place to be. Best of luck!
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Poetry is a wonderful form of expression. There where times in my life that writing poetry was the only way to get trough. I felt in that time in my life if I hadn’t had poetry I would not have made it through to today. The ability to express my self literally saved my life when no one around me was listening or paying attention. In short poetry can be and do anything you want it to, poetry is plane awesome.
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I’m so glad I subscribed to your blog posts. Really good and thoughtful and funny and insightful.
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